Frustration

I'm so frustrated with work. If I could change one thing in my job description, it wouldn't be hard to decide what it would be. I would take out that last line that says, "other tasks as assigned.". Since when is it part of my job to drive myself and 3 other staff in MY vehicle to a field trip? Isn't that what we pay bus drivers for?

And if it was up to me, a lot of the staff that did go on the trip would be looking for a new job.

I'm just frustrated, I can't wait for this day to end to go home and listen to some music.

private viewing

i went to the movies last night, just me and the guy.  we went to see the brothers bloom.  we paid fourteen dollars for our tickets, another nine for our beverages.  walked in the theatre and we were the only ones there.  the movie started, a man walked in, sat a few rows up.  three people, one movie theatre, some cuddling in the back row.  it was a great night.

handle with care

i went to the emergency room on tuesday.  i woke up with a ache in my eye.  i didn't think anything of it, as i usually do.  just thought i slept on it funny, maybe slept on my hand or something, ya know.

i went to work, my boss noticed that there was something weird going on with my eyes.  i was having trouble blinking my right eye, unless i made a conscience effort to blink it.  then she had me do these other regular, very natural motions with my face.  i could not move the right side of my face.

i called my mom, she took me to the emergency room right away and i was diagnosed with bell's palsy, a form of paralysis of the face due to an irritation to the facial nerve.  i was the third case this week for the hospital i went to, which even they thought was a lot.

the doc had me take a cat scan, which came back clear and sent me home with two prescriptions.  one for a steroid and one fore a anti-viral medication.  i am ingesting huge amounts of medicine into my system with hopes that it will help, however, there is no proof that the medication helps with the cure of bell's palsy.

getting in front of the camera

for a while now, i've been thinking that i want to get back in front of the camera and start making videos again.  i know that someone out there in this huge world that we live in will watch it.  even so, if nobody watched the video that i make, i would survive.  i would not be offended nor discouraged to make more videos.

tonight.  that's the goal.  tonight i will put together a new video, edit it, and post it no later than tomorrow night.